An Early Experience from a Budding Intuitive

4 Minute Read | A story of tragedy that jolted me further awake. 

Hello Dear Friends,

In the strictest of confidence, I have worked with therapists and psychologists to assist with their more difficult patients as well as the police to locate missing persons. How did I get to this place in my life? How did I discover the ability to assist in this way? The following is a very personal story of one of the early experiences developing my intuitive nature. Besides the actual memories of knowing things early on as a child, we all have the ability to tap into the unknown within, the gut instinct, the "feel it in my bones" if we only listen. Apparently, I am a good listener. Here, then, is how I got there.

All of the this actually happened - the tragedy, the shock, the wonder, everything. It's my hope that this inspires you to a greater understanding of what I do and how I do it. I am happy to share this delicate story yet please understand that I am carefully sharing this to avoid privacy infringement; therefore, all references, names and location are changed or removed entirely to protect those involved.

How the Story Came to Be

This story occurred some years ago when an Arkansas friend, Sue Potter (spotter for those of you hailing from the days of e-lists and rings in the early PC era, right after the Prodigy era), added my name and email address to the "Healium List"; which is a tongue-in-cheek play on words but the list primarily contained healers from all over the world. At the time, I didn't really think one way or the other about being added but I felt Sue was generous with her opinion of me. Further I didn't think anything would come of it. Surprisingly, one day I received an email from an east coast doctor, who practiced traditional (western) medicine, asking those on the Healium List for assistance.

This medical physician had a female patient who was confounding him as well as others in the medical field, specialists and so on. The doctor gave the name of the patient and asked all on the list to check this person out because he was at his wits end and felt like this was his last resort - to turn to the healing community for insight. Here was his plea:

Dear Friends,

        This is Adam Rose writing to request a psychic diagnosis with regard to Lora O'Terry (32) presently in the hospital of the Medical College.

        Lora is a mother of 4 young children who came here with her husband just before Christmas after having been ill since April of this year. Her condition has been deteriorating steadily and the doctors are puzzled.

        My old patent attorney friend in his 80's (from whom I did not expect this) suggested we seek a psychic diagnosis so I found this list of healers and sent this message to a number of you in the hopes that one or more will do some kind of a reading and let us know what your psychic perceptions might be so we can ask the doctors to check that possibility.

        Some urgency is called for at this time.

        Lora and family are presently on welfare as she has not been able to work or care for the children for some months but both she and her husband are very willing, hard workers concerned for the future of our planet. They are here without charge.

        Our foundation has been working for 30 years on a positive future for our planet and if you wish to know more about us you can e-mail me, phone me (We'll call back free in U.S.) or check out our listserv. Below is a complete list of healers for your information.

        If you know any of those or others and believe they may be especially helpful in this situation, please forward this message to them.

                Peace and Love, Adam Rose

My Initial Response

I read the email from Dr. Rose and sat there for a moment wondering if I should help, you see I wasn't exactly strongly into a practice at that point in time and my confidence was slim; yet, something inside of me said I should just do it. So, I did. I sat there, hit REPLY, and began typing.

It was interesting what came to me in that moment of accepting the challenge/opportunity; as if there was a silent plea from someone somewhere. I was compelled to oblige. So I opened mind and moved my "thoughts" away (set them aside). I created a clearing in my inner vision. There, in my mind, I saw a woman flipping switches off in this private room of hers, which appeared to be a room inside of her and all the switches were her online systems (i.e., endocrine, nervous, etc.). So this is what I wrote him. I said,

"This woman is shutting down everything inside. It's pre-planned, pre-meditated, a conscious choice on her part."

Then I felt or "heard" that I should be finding out what the doctors and specialists should do next. For some unexplainable reason the author Dr. Edgar Cayce popped into my mind at this time and I then understood that she was tricking these doctors and giving them a set of false symptoms as a diversion. She was very clever, very prepared and very focused on her intent. I then felt or heard that I should provide information to the doctors themselves. I should get more information as to what the doctors should do about this dilemma with this woman.

Now, it was at this point my own confidence in myself began to really waver and imposter syndrome really set in. I thought, 'oh, my gosh I can't be asking this, these are established, licensed medical professionals; they are not going to listen to me, who am I?!?' Still, I just couldn't stop the whole process midway, and so resumed typing. I then added in the email that the doctors should begin psychologically tricking her to reveal her true symptoms and then, finally, they could really get at the root of the issues and help her. the level of information I received was certainly beyond my knowing for I had never attended medical school; I was a commercial artist! Yet, I continued onward not even understanding what I was writing. I signed my name and hit the SEND button, adding a little prayer as it electronically travelled to the doctor.

Dear Mr. Rose, 

Regarding your patient, Ms. Lora O'Terry, I sense a similarity to riga mortis settling into her on an deep emotional level. Her mind is shutting completely down and there feels (to her) as if there is no hope of returning. This is a deep soul experience, one which she has carried forward for some time now.

How do you work with this patient?

Please consider getting her to see a big picture of herself in such a way as to throw her off balance, take her by surprise; not in a harmful way, but a gentle and loving way. This action may send  her system off balance temporarily, long enough for you to diagnose more accurately/precisely ... for at that time, her body will take over and respond with more active physical manifestations of her mental paralysis.

Working backward from there  you can then assist her in achieving and accepting fully "life" over "death". Gentle guidance in the areas of self love and self acceptance, no matter how heinous or grave her past (and past lives?) ... is advisable as well. 

Blessings to you and yours for wondrous success!!!

Deidre Madsen

After I sent out the email response, I nervously waited for a reply because I really began second-guessing my abilities and what I considered ... audacity. So, I prayed and released because I've done what I've done and there is no turning back. I let it go.

One Week Later

To my surprise, about a week later I received a response from Dr. Rose thanking me but letting me know my reading was off base.

Dear Deidre,

         "Thanks, Deidre, for your concern. Lora is a very loving person with a very active, caring mind fully intending to get well. Her symptoms are mainly physical. Serious weakness and weight loss not attributable to
cancer.

                Peace and Love, Adam Rose

I sat there, after reading his short thank-you-but-no-thank-you note, feeling down and disappointed in myself. I thought I had this intuitive gift, this ability to be "psychically" connected and I thought I had it sort of figured out how to do it. I guess I was wrong. I guess maybe sometimes it doesn't work or something And so I sighed, let it go and went on with life. I never thought I could have been right. So I simply let everything go, my supposed gifts and abilities, everything. And went about my daily life a little sad and ineffective but, realizing perhaps I should just let it all go. So I did.

One Month Later

A month later to my greatest surprise, I received another email from that same doctor. I was so surprised that I went slightly out-of-body. I wondered why he wrote. I clicked it open and read the first line and stopped cold. I couldn't read on. I instantly broke down crying. For a while, I sat there sobbing, my heart torn and devastated. I could not bear to read further. I could hardly move my body, I was so devastated.

Dear Deidre,

    You may recall the response I sent you to the letter you sent us about Lora O'Terry. If not, here it is:

    "Thanks, Deidre, for your concern. Lora is a very loving person with a very active, caring mind fully intending to get well. Her symptoms are mainly physical. Serious weakness and weight loss not attributable to cancer.

                       Peace and Love, Adam Rose

    

  As it turns out, on re-reading your diagnosis, it appears that you were correct. The tragedy was that of some 20 psychics to whom I wrote, only you said anything like this and so we did not take it seriously enough.

    Instead, my response (above) was essentially that you had missed it entirely. We continued to look at all other avenues of healing even when Lora was less than fully cooperative.

    She appeared very honest with us and very spiritual, anxious to get well and loving the kids. But now we know that during that time she and her man went to a gun store and arranged to purchase a gun apparently for the
purpose of suicide.

    They had to wait at least 7 days and during that time they hid this from us completely. On the 8th of January, they went to a notary with a letter asking that their kids should be raised by my wife and I, but they never
discussed that with us at all, and seeing we are not relatives, it will not be possible.

    On January 10 the oldest child, Aria (10) was on the phone with her grandfather begging him to come down here to visit her, but he, being depressed and all that, refused. The family then decided on the 11th to drive the 2 - 3 hours north of here to where he lived and visit him for a few days.

    They planned to leave at 10 a.m. but did not actually get away till 5:30.  Before leaving Lora spent several hours with my wife wanting to straighten things out re. arguments they had six years before and wanting
us to tell them the whole truth about how we felt about them.

    After they left, they went back to the gun store we knew nothing of and picked up the .38 pistol. We don't yet know all that happened after that but they did not arrive at the grandfather's house till around midnight.

    At about 4:00 a.m. of the 12th Lora shot Steve three times and then shot herself to death also. Only Aria (10) woke up and went to see what happened but did not believe it. Thinking it was a bad dream she went
back to bed and the bodies were not found till 8:00 a.m. next morning, or at least so we are told.

    We learned nothing of all this until we received a phone call from a relative of the grandfather's wife and when she told me there was a murder/suicide, I could not believe it for some time. My wife and I still find it all hard to relate to.

    On finding and re-reading your letter (below) I realize that had I taken it seriously at the time we might have tried to do something more. I don't know if there was any way we could really have prevented the tragedy. But none of the other psychics gave us a hint of what was happening. Looking back there were some minor clues but only if we'd put those together with your letter would we have gotten a hint. We didn't.

    Now we are trying to relate somehow to the kids who are presently with relatives of Lora's father near the town where the parents died. Lora's mother, the kids grandmother, is in town where we are.

    Aria and Sandy (5) are in counseling with a therapist up north. We have not yet had enough time with either of them to know what they really feel. Aria knew they had bought a gun, was scared and wanted to call us but could not. We don't yet know what happened in the hours between leaving here and getting to the Grandfather's and what actually went on there. Police are investigating but will give us little information. They told us of the letter Lora wrote and notarized re. the kids but we've not yet seen it.

    Who should care for the kids will probably be decided by a court and we may have no part in that. I feel that we should and could do a lot with the older kids who might visit here when the see their grandmother in the city. Aria and my son (15) are good friends, and that might be
helpful to her.

    If you wish to talk with us by phone, let me know and we can arrange that or you can call anytime.

       Peace and love, Adam Rose

 

Dearest Adam,

I have been devastated by your email and this tragic outcome. I am so sorry for this tragedy is worse hearing it from you. Much worse. I am crying so hard I can hardly type.

Your and Lora's family have undergone enormous sorrow. These children will also need assistance and I will be more than happy to assist you further, in any way.

Remember the mail I wrote regarding past life experiences? These children as well as yourself and the intertwining of both families, have been happening before. You however were her father in another experience. That is why you have worked so hard at loving her in this life, it [the emotion] is drawn very deeply from you.

When I received your mail I just broke down crying because I dreaded getting it.

Whatsoever I can do to assist you further, please feel free to contact me. And, yes, I would love to touch base via phone/land line anytime. 

Thank you again, Adam, for contacting me with this. I know it was terribly difficult to write it, let alone live it. My heart aches and goes out for you and your family and also for Lora's. If you wish, I will also contact Lora to pass messages back and forth for the girls and for you. Please keep in mind the opportunities are as limitless as your imagination. 

Love and peace to you,

Deidre

Follow-Up

Afterwards, the family and the doctor asked me to ask her (on the other side of the veil) what happened; to investigate further whether it was a homicide or suicide. However, by then I received a clear message:  "No," not to do this and to let it go. This was hugely traumatic for everyone involved, including me, to say the least; however, what did happen was that I really began to realize that I did indeed have a gift, a gift of second sight, of intuition, of deep knowing. I remained close to Dr. Rose for many years.

A Clear Calling

Since that experience, traumatic as it was, it was a way for me to open myself up with a jolt. Never did I think I could be opened further but I was (a few years later in my actual awakening). So, I began to take myself seriously and wanted to help others despite the potential for this kind of emotional pain and trauma. I began to help locate missing children, pets and so on.

I have accumulated many true and amazing stories to share of events and occurrences, predictions in relationships, travel and more that come true through my sessions. I no longer connect with those that have passed away. And as far as past lives, as I study my own ancestral lineage and their amazing stories, I am beginning to wonder if we aren't merely connecting with our physical ancestors' lives and thinking/feeling they are our own somehow. Our body's DNA is a storehouse for all our ancestors information, especially going back seven+ generations. So the discoveries and mysteries continue.

I am eternally grateful for these gifts of the Ruach Ha Kodoish to YHWH, Father in Heaven, Great Creator, Great Holy Spirit, Wakan Tonka and to my I AM. Thank you, thank you, thank you. May peace come to these families and Lora and her family find the salvation of eternal peace.

Namaste,

Deidre Madsen